This is 41.

Goals. The completion of tasks and executing dreams. Forgiving myself, or finding the humility or acceptance to let go or find another way, when things feel like they’re not going well or not getting finished. Except sometimes it’s not a feeling, it’s cold hard reality, and I’m still learning how to deal with cold hard reality sometimes. Things like plumbing and water issues and unfinished house fixes, falling behind on work and accounting, computers going down and 9-month olds determined to tango with hot space heaters. Cold hard reality and executing the present takes precedence sometimes, much of the time, over the glow of dreams and hopes and conceptualizing - or even setting in motion the execution of - the future. I’m coming to trips with that and feeling like slipping into a cliche or archetype as a product of the age or point in life I’m at. #middleage 20171006