I sort of like you a billion.
I really like hanging out with you.
I tell him,
walking down city sidewalk.
Oh.
He says.
I sort of like hanging out with you.
I really enjoy the dragon you're drawing.
I tell him
as he scribbles furiously; spaghetti sauce on white shirt messy with pen & marker combo.
Oh.
He says.
I sort of enjoy what you're drawing,
a little bit.
Do I look handsome, Daddy?
He asks.
Yes.
I tell him, smiling.
You look so striking with
three swords,
a cape,
and pigtailed hair.
How about me: do I look handsome?
Umm...
he says.
Sort of, but not very much.
Yum...
I compliment myself aloud.
I did a great job making supper.
Isn't it delicious?
It's...
sort of good.
He acknowledges.
But Mama makes better food than you.
Well,
I say.
Bedtime!
Oh.
He says.
Daddy?
Yes?
I respond.
Do you want to lay by me for a thousand hours?
No need to repeat the invite.
Absolutely,
I say,
snuggling into a highly uncomfortable position alongside that will leave my back aching for days;
my heart swinging.
Absolutely sort of completely.
I had a good day with you.
I whisper.
Oh.
He whispers back.
I had an awful, horrible, rotten day with you.
I don't believe you, buddy.
I kiss his cheek,
and his grubby hand wipes it away in the dark.
Love you a billion.
Good night, all.